CHECK! Im a whore. And a forgiven one at that!

I did it!!!!

After 19 1/2 years........... I finally surrendered it all to Christ. Every bit of me! I had surrendered in parts, but never truly like I did yesterday. I am finally where I need to be. Of course not saying I'm done growing! Heck no! I am just getting started. But this is just one more step closer to him. I am going to have to work on it for the rest of my life, remembering to surrender to him fully, but he's good. He won't leave me high and dry. Oh gosh, I love the LORD!

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I have to say, I'm pretty darn impressed with the truth project. This last one.....wow. The all mighty God dwelling in me? Not just a part of him, but ALL of him?! I am now invited into the God-head?!?! NO WAY!!!!

It's so cool to think about, God is in me.God is in you. Really think about that. Now that does not mean we are like God, or that we are God. Heck no! I know myself are you kidding me? I would be a scary god! I wouldn't even want to worship me.

It was also so very convicting. Just looking at my thought life, how I struggle with that! I hardly have any outside sin, but the things in my mind. God forgive me! I have become a whore in my search for significance.

Sadly if someone says 'God, today your not enough for me.' It doesn't seem to weigh much because guess what, we do it every day. But comparing that to a husband waking up and saying to his wife ' you know? your just not enough for me today. I am going to go find my fulfillment somewhere else.' Or every morning a wife waking up and telling her husband ' gosh you really aren't doing it for me. I'm going to find something/someone better, but you better be here when I come back!' That is what it is like when we turn and look for our satisfaction and our significance in things other then God. The bible portrays this as whoring yourself or prostituting ones self out. This is how God feels and sees it when we turn away from him, even if its for the slightest things, if they become our significance, we are lost.

The amazing thing is though, God forgives us if we ask him to. As far as the east is from the west.

Thank you Jesus!

CHECK! I'm a whore. And a forgiven one at that!

A Day Late

"So let me get this straight
You say now you loved me all along
What made you hesitate to tell me with words what you really feel?
I can see it in your eyes you mean all of what you say
I remember so along ago, see I felt that same way
Now we both have separate lives and lovers (and lovers)
Insignificantly enough we both have significant others

Only time will tell
Time will turn and tell

We are who we were when
Could have been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who, we are who we were when
Who knew what we know now
Could have been more but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who, we are who we were when

But thoughts they change and times they rearrange I don't know who you are anymore
Loves come and go and this I know I'm not who you recall anymore
But I must confess you're so much more than I remember
Can't help but entertain these thoughts, thoughts of us together

We are who we were when
Could have been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who, we are who we were when
Who knew what we know now
Could have been more but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who, we are who we were when

So let me get this straight
All these years and you were no where to be found
And now you want me for your own
But you're a day late and my love, she's still renowned

We are who we were when
Could have been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who, we are who we were when
Who knew what we know now
Could have been more but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who, we are who we were when

We are who we were when
Could have been lovers but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who, we are who we were when
Who knew what we know now
Could have been more but at least you're still my day late friend
We are who, we are who we were when"

Dear Loved One

If only you could see the truth. I wish I could show you your going to hell. No it's not a party, it's not a joke. it's eternal torment. It's all seperation from God. Why wont you listen to me? Why can't you just beleive me? I don't want to leave without you......

"Even Angels Cry"

I whisper,"You don't have to worry, we'll survive"
Forced smiles underneath the brittle, frozen light
No proof that you're alive
Cold fingers find the curve below your tired eyes
No comfort in familiar places, not this time
You hold it deep inside

Oh sister, if you wake up in the night
Walls are falling, letting in the light
No need to worry
Baby, even angels cry

No flood warnings, still the waters rise
Flowers through asphalt, Diamonds in the pockets of your eyes
Turn your face and hide
I saw a woman with ribbons in her hair
Old and lonely, so beautiful I had to stop and stare
The well will not run dry

Oh sister, if you wake up in the night
Walls are falling, letting in the light
No need to worry
Baby, even angels cry

Oh sister, if you wake up in the night
Walls are falling, letting in the light
No need to worry
Baby, even angels cry

Cry Sister, if you wake up in the night
Walls are falling, letting in the light
It'll be alright
Baby, even angels cry

Baby, please don't worry
Not tonight

By Jars Of Clay
The most amazing Band to ever walk this earth.